I’m getting married again. My ex-wife just paid a little less than 5 thousand to get our divorce finalized in January. I told her I never wanted a divorced, that was my justification for not paying one penny into it. It took 8 months. Forever. For the last couple months I kept asking her when it would be done. I needed to propose to my now fiancee. I think my ex-wife hates me. I ask her if she hates me all the time. She tells me I’m an asshole. I told her one night that she was right. I am an asshole. My ex-wife. She was a handful. She was demanding and expectant of things I couldn’t provide. For example, appreciation and affection. I cheated on my girlfriend at the time to be with this one. I got her knocked up and then had to marry her. She was like my homie. We were very young. We fought too much. We were together on and off for about 7 years. One day after she realized that we had both fucked each other over the limit, she decided to really leave me. We lived together for a while until she could get on her feet and move out with my kid. I then realized that I didn’t want her to move on. I remember that night. My kid was spending the night at her moms. She left and she didn’t come home until 5 in the morning. I went after her with a knife. I got locked up. They got evicted because of me. They both suffered because of me. She went on her way and I went on mine. No child support, no visitation, nothing. I’m an asshole, remember that. Then one day, I decided to start caring. I would see my kid when I felt like it. I also started to miss my ex-wife. I would call her and ask her to come back to me, to give me a second chance. She said no every single time. I think it’s because I had a girlfriend. No, It was probably because I’m an asshole. Nothing I did was ever good enough so my ex-wife filed for divorce and child support. It was a year after we separated. Can you believe it? She was making me pay child support. Paying almost 450 dollars a month. I thought it was too much, I still think that way. I tried with my ex-wife right before the divorce. I asked her if we can at least have sex. I’m serious. When we were together and happy I joked about if we were to ever part ways and be with another person, we’d still fuck. So, I brought it up. She didn’t find it humorous. She told me I was an asshole. She said she should tell my fiancee about how fucked up I am. She asked me if my fiancee knew how retarded I was. I told my ex that my fiancee has issues with me not being affectionate enough. She wasn’t surprised. I don’t care, I’m the way I am. I’m an asshole. My fiancee has no idea how much I’m still in love with my ex. I’d drop my fiancee in a heartbeat if my ex gave me a second chance. I told my ex-wife this. She said that would never happen because she would never be with me again. She said I’m an idiot. She said I need to grow up. She said I would never change. I proposed to my fiancee last month right after my ex-wife finalized the divorce. She’s having my baby. I don’t learn, do I? LOL. Sometime next month we will find out whether or not it’s a boy or girl. My ex-wife says I’ll probably end up being a two time baby daddy paying two separate women child support. My kid, I’m not there for him. He’s a brilliant kid. He’s just like his mom. Except he likes to change a little for me when I’m around, he acts like one of the homies. I can’t even be there for my son but I’m having another baby. I really fucked him over the most. The kid cried for me day and night. I didn’t care. I was having too much fun out at the beach with my friends. I mean, I’m young. Memorial weekend at the beach is a little more important then my kid. So yeah, I’m getting married again. I tried to keep it down low from my ex-wife but my kid called me out. Just like he called me out when my fiancee got pregnant. I lied about it when my ex-wife asked me, then I had to come clean. I can’t really lie about a kid. I mean, I don’t know how to keep that a secret. So back to getting married. I’m getting married to a female who I don’t even know I want to be with for the rest of my life. My ex-wife once asked me if I actually loved my fiancee. I said, “I don’t have any complaints.” What was I suppose to say? Yes, I love my fiancee? I told my ex-wife that she sucks. She sucks because she knows me too well. She sucks because she sees right through me. My ex-wife, she sucks. She sucks because I love her and I would do anything for her. My ex-wife sucks. I treat her like shit in front of people. I have to pretend I don’t care about her. After-all, my nickname is two face. At least it was before I changed it. Anyways, the wedding is set for sometime in April. I have no idea what I’m doing. I don’t even know how I feel about it. I guess I just roll with what comes. Do you take asshole to be your lawfully wedded husband? Haha.